i-canz-kill-dragon replied to your post: wow my dash right now
C’mon LJ even you must be sad. No more Colin every week! We’re gonna have to wait till he makes movies to see his perfect face! And what happens if he just does theatre for awhile? It’ll be even longer between gifsets and photos :(
rubberglue replied to your post: wow my dash right now
ARE PEOPLE SAD? BECAUSE THEY SHOULD BE. I HATE GOODBYES.
The show, as a proper watch-for-the-plot-want-to-see-things-progress sort of show, ended for me when s5 started. But I still have so much love for the previous seasons, so much love for the characters and all the myriad of relationships, many of which the show merely hints at. And the cast has somehow wormed their way into my heart and I actually care about their careers. Lol.
But, it’s true. I enjoy lots of shows but I don’t have as complex a relationship with them as I do Merlin. Merlin and its fandom taught me so many things. I made so many good friends online. This show is just bound up in so many other things that its absence is going to impact me in many ways. The point is, Merlin is more than a show for me and even when the show started to disappoint, I still had everything else that it was.
Basically, I’m sad because I suspect I might lose more than just a TV show.
All of this. I have an extremely complicated relationship with Merlin. I love many, many TV shows - and I DON’T love Merlin, not in its current form - but I don’t think any others have ever had the impact on my real life the way that Merlin has (nor do I expect any other media to impact me this profoundly again - it’s a life-stage thing).
The fact is that there are many people who I now know who have profoundly impacted who I am and how I see myself in extremely positive ways, none of whom I would know without this fucking show. Quite aside from that, I would absolutely NOT be on the career path that I currently am had Merlin and its fandom not given me the kick-start that it did back when it started airing, when I was nineteen. The word ‘formative’ is a major fucking understatement here.
Not to put too fine a point on it, but Merlin has potentially impacted who I am and what I will be doing professionally for the rest of my life.
That is a big fucking deal. It’s weird and it’s a little fucked up, but it’s the truth of the situation. Five years is a long time, particularly when that five years bridges someone passing out of their teens and into their early twenties. Of course Merlin has deeply influenced who I am and who I will be for a long time to come.
I’m not sad
fine I’m a little sad, mostly I’m relieved, but I’m also kind of… numb? This is ultimately the end of an era, one that has had major and far-reaching consequences for me personally. It’s a similar feeling to the one I had when I graduated - I was glad that was over, too, but also kind of profoundly struck by how I was never, ever going to get this period of my life back and I was never, ever going to experience anything like it again.